Well it was hard as CRAP getting back to work today after that GLORIOUSLY long break. 11 days I think was final count. Granted I still went in a bit but that is okay. But needless to say coming back to work today was tough. Though I find it less horribly nerve wracking at work as I think my boss trusts my judgement more these days. Oh well.
Other interesting things. Last night after writing my Blog friend Joe came over and we worked on a script idea of his hammering out some outline components and brain storming for a couple hours. That felt good to get the creative stuff going, and it is nice to know I worked on writing a bit. I was thinking about that today, what is it that really makes life worthwhile. I had once though that it was WHO you spent your life with, but after some haberdashery and retardation galore after College I realize that that is more of a lifestyle choice and not the answer to the big question. Then I thought it was WHAT you did. But then I went to LA tried the job stuffs and found that what you do is never what you expect. Then I thought it was MONEY, or how much you made. Now this one made sense a bit cause with money you can buy happiness (yes I know the old proverb says Money can't buy happiness but some how I don't see a lot of really sad rich people around). So I pursued engineering again with the concept that if I made enough money I would be able to fill my life with stuff and it would deplete my stress level especially concerning loans and such. But now I am wondering if what makes life worth living is SUCCEEDING. Granted I think that which makes life worth living will eventually be a combination of all of these, but lets pursue the success idea. When you succeed in anything, you feel good. Hell even in a boring job when you can sit back and say a job well done, you feel kinda nice about it. Granted there are exceptions, I'm sure the torturer doesn't sit back and say "Jolly well done, we got all the information out of THAT one." but I think you get the point. Most likely it is doing a job you enjoy, but being able to have success in that job that will create a combination to yield happiness. Oh yea, also you have to make money because it creates a sort of echo of that happiness in the rest of your life. So job you find interesting that you can be successful at which yields money to cover happiness in your lifestyle which you spend with someone you can enjoy these things with. Be careful though because otherwise you create too delicate a balance. I mean lets say you have all this in order and lose you job or *gasp* are promoted to a position you don't like or don't feel success at, then the rest all goes out of wack even more dramatically because it is like a domino effect. Makes me understand why so many people don't really try in their lives because if they don't have far to fall then it doesn't hurt when they do. A thing to consider anyway. But those who try the hardest often fall the hardest. It is often the man who works a hundred hours a week only to return home to find his wife has run off with the pool boy with big dreams of one day owning his own pool cleaning company, who finds his world collapse around him. Balance is important. Perhaps I should take up meditation. I do believe personal time and meditation are important. And personal time is different that personal entertainment. Playing video games is not personal time. Personal time is working with your hands or driving in the country. It is where you are not being entertained but are entertaining yourself. Keeps the brain active. Its like the sleep chemical but the important one you get while you are awake, without it you find yourself becoming duller and weaker of mind. For example this blogging is my waking sleep, my proverbial "personal time". It used to be my commute through all the back roads but now that I sit in beltway traffic I have had to adapt. It works reasonably well as I feel that I am getting my thoughts out and while not in order, they feel better written down.
Well that is enough of that ramble. Other things I did today was go to work, get a decent amount done. Went to the gym when I got home and went to a class with the girl. Soon I shall eat a Delicious dinner I had no part in making *shame on me* and be off to a night of board games with people far smarter than me (which makes it quite the board game challenge let me tell you!)
Over and out.
This MIGHT be the poorest choice in picture I've ever seen. (Figure 1)
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